I told somebody this morning I feel like standing on a cliff or somewhere where nobody can hear me and screaming at the top of my lungs, I don't know if I will feel better.
I believe that with God anything is possible, but realise that fighting this "great deceiver" called Crystal Meth alias. Tik, Cranck, "Hitlers drug" Speed, whatever you want to call it, is driving me insane, because of the mere fact that I am feeling helpless. My whole family feels helpless.
I stay next to my sister. If I have to tell you the whole story we need at least half a day, but I just want to tell you the latest part of it all. We could see her and her daughter's life changing dramatically. I have reason to believe her daugther was the first to start using. I know my sister always had a problem with getting addicted to Alcohol, other type of drugs, such as smoking weed.
At first I am sure it was part of the party scene over weekends and her husband probably did not realise what type of drug my sister and her daugther and friends were using, because I know he gave his money and it was huge amounts of money at a time that dissapeared and he could not say anything then he would be verbally abused by my sister in only the way she knew how. I never understood how he could allow her to do what she has been doing for all this time, but I realise know that it is not the right time to put blame on somebody or to point fingers. It is not going to make this situasion better, because none of us knew in the beginning what was going on and we do not know how to handle this situasion.
Well, it is so bad now that I am sure she has lost about 10-15kg's in 5 months and believe me she and her daugther have always been skinny and am sure, after educating myself with regards to the dirty Crystal Meth that, that is probably part reason why they started using the first place. You lose weight. Now she looks like a skeleton. Her eyes are sunk deep into her sockets, blue, grey rings around her once beautiful eyes, her skin a greyish, zombie like colour. Her face full of sores. Lips cracked at the sides. Teeth busy rotting. All the tell-tale signs of using METH. She is permanently paranoid and believe people are out to get her. She, by times, does not realise who her family are. She believes the cops are going to try and catch her. Little does she know that they are on to her and her "family of METH users". I am so nervous, because the only thing I could do was go speak to somebody at the Norcotics division at our local police, because the Hospital could not
help us!
She must first admit she has a problem and want to be helped first, (and she said that she will not stop using). By the way, she does not speak to me over a incident a while back where her son gave my daugther something (I am talking about 10 year old kids) and said she must mix it in water and drink it, which my daugther told me about. Luckily I have a strong relationship with my daugther and she will not use anything and she told me about it.
I confronted my sister and told her that my daugther are not allowed to go there anymore and that she must not let her son get hold of her stuff because he could get seriously hurt . At that stage I did not know what I was up against. She snapped at me and asked me if I think she is a dealer. That is when I realised something bad is going on and that this substance that she is taking is far worse that anything I have ever seen.(I grew up in the environment where members of my family and friends where always on one or other substance)
Now I have to wait for the Police to make a breakthrough and according to them it is almost time then at least the family can have a court letter signed stating that she cannot make decisions anymore for herself, because that is how bad it is and that she must be sent for rehab. Maybe somebody on this website have advice for me on what to do.
The last week has been hell. Her son is permanently by me and the other day she started yelling at me stating that I want people to take her kid away from her, which I don't want to do. I want her to get help so that she can be a mother again. She was once a good mother to her children. Somebody told me that while tweaking my sister has already sharpened knives and said who all she was going to kill. I have told this to the police, but it seems like somebody must first get hurt or killed. I have an idea she might become violent with me.
My fear is for the children, including my daugther living in that buidling. I do not know when she is going to go completely crazy. Her husband moved out and this weekend she snapped at the boyfriend that is 10 years younger than her. I feel sad for her, sorry for her and then angry at her. But now realise that it is too late to feel upset with her because the sister I once knew is not there anymore. It is just her body and I dont know if we will ever have her back.
What can I do?? If anybody can just give advice.
