i was 14 when i first ran away i thought i couldnt live at hoem and it would be kinda cool to live on the street cause i would have no rules...when i got out there i found the night were long and cold...i made some friends they suggested doin meth it would help me stay up and i could keep myself warm...so i tried it ...and i liked it and that started 4 years of a rolling drug problem that got worse and worse it got to the point where i was prosituting to make enough money to get my drugs.
..it turned into spending about a grand a night at my worse point...i looked gross no one knew who i was anymore, i didnt have a family cuase they were tired of watching me fail so they ratehred not watching me....i got into herion and coke crack and meth ..whjatever i had the money for and i always found a way to get money ....
i came to the realization that i rerally needed help i had gone to detox before and it was more cause i saw how much pain my mom was in from me and i wanted it to stop for her so if she thought i had stopped then all would be good but everytime after detox things would just carried away againa nd i would leave....
i went out partying the night before with a friend it was april 25 hwen i woke up and april 26 is my birthday it was my 18th birthday and i woke up laying on my friends deck cause i had tried to run away but he was so high as well he didnt go look for me...i was bleeding from my nose my mouth and my ears i had cut my head from when i hiit it on the deck...
i woke up looked around .,..walked down the stairs and walked home thinking what am i doing to myslef..i walked home anc called the lady i knew that cordinated the youth detox's and said i need help..so i went to the kwanis youth shelter for the night and got picked up in the morning by 2 of the workers...my 2 favorite ones....
they took me there..they had made cupcakes that said happy birthday tara and i was crying looking at these cause then i realised that theres ppl out there who are willing to help me get threw this i really dont have to do it on my own...
i am now almost 2 years clean as of november 8th i will have 2 years and now i can do anything in the world that i want to cause i dont haeva dark cloud over my head....
i really wanna become a drug and alcohla social worker i acually really wanna open up a detox center for youth cause i hear about how long the wait list is to get in there sometimes and when u wanna get clean u need help right away cause ina couple hours u could get scard and say screw it i want to do drugs
so thats my story very vauge but its there...
