I was 16 when i was first introduced to crystal by a freind that i had worked with. I knew i'd get screwed in the end losing everything over many many times.
you fall victim to the drug so quickly that its unbelievable...i managed to control my habit for a good 6 months, hiding it from people here and there not letting anybody know.
After that i got careless, spent ALL my paychecks on debts and to get higher. I'd smoke jib at work, at home, in my car, alleys, stairwells, ANYWHERE as long as i wasn't heated out. I lost contact with all my friends from highschool, dropped outta school and ended up doin crime to pay for my habit and to give me something to do while i got high and was high.
I became one of those prolific BC car thieves that everyone was ranting about in the papers at one point, i thought i was the best, never was gonna get caught and all that. I ended up doin a couple over nighters untill i really just lost my mind one night, got into a chase, and ended up gettin torn up by the K-9 Unit.
As of that night, my life changed...it was the first time they were'nt gonna release me from jail. i was gonna do 4 months at North Fraser Pretrial, weighing in at 117 lbs. after that i was clean, gained 70lbs. After being let out, i failed at my first opportunity at rehab when i left the house a week into it to get high again.the pull was too strong for me.
i had outstanding warrants than, eventually losing my mind totally, fighting people that were'nt there, and ended up turning myself into the cops cause i KNEW this time i needed to get sober. A little while longer in jail, i got out and got into a 2 month treatment program that i could say easily changed my life. Since completing rehab i've been 8 months clean now and i have my life back, my girlfriend, my car, my family, my house.
i cant express all the remorse i have for the wrongs that i had done, and how many people i had hurt in the midst of my drug addiction.
its hard, it really is, the hardest thing i'd ever done in my life, but god dammit, my life is something else today, that i just couldn't deal with losing again to this evil fuckin drug.
im a 19 year old male now clean and sober from crystal meth, i do drink and smoke week normally but i use smoke chronic to keep me away from the lure of speed..
thanks for reading, hoping this might help someone in need.
