But I used for 8 years off and on At the age of 13 by the age of 21 I was so done using. At 13 I first used Blancas(whites)and at 14 I used cocaine with a friend and her older sister gave it to us.

Then I used it on the weekend only. When I went to Highschool I started to use Crystal& crank first snorting then when I graduated from Highschool and I started to smoke it you know chasing the dragon. It became very addicting and I was seeing all of my friends go down hill like losing thier jobs because they couldn't wake up or make it on time to work.

My friends couldn't make the rent and buy groceries and have gas money. But if we were going to score then we would come up with the $ money how funny is that huh? Well anyways One of my friends decided to take his life, in Aug 9, 1993 because he said that he couldn't take hearing the voices anymore. He shot himself in the head and he was with 2 of our friends and they were freaked out because they said it happened so fast.

Then 1 month later another friend of mine hung himself at my friend's Party house. He would always tell us that he was going to kill himself but we did not take him serious he also said that the voices are telling him to kill himself.

These 2 deaths made me realize that I didn't want crystal or any drug in my life anymore. I stopped using immediately and had my parents support.

I didn't go to couseling or any NA meetings I was strong enough to quit on my own and stayed clean for 11 years and still clean and sober. I just want to let you know that it's not easy if you don't have the support. But I truly believe that if you really want it then you can do it I did I have faith in all users and I pray for them every night.