I'm new to this (wife a meth user)

[Patience]

And life has been extremely difficult, painful, and depressing. My husband is an addict and is in denial. He leaves 3 nights a week from 1am well into the next morning (doesnt return before I go to work). I worry because I dont know where he's at or who he's with. He has expressed that he needs to be around others who "tweek" b/c it's boring for him to get high at home and see my worried and disappointed face. I, on the other hand would rather him be at home b/c at least I know he's safe - rather than running the streets. It also leads me to think that he may be unfaithful b/c who knows what happens when he's high.

Many times I feel like giving up - throwing in the towel - but the bottom line is - he's my husband and I love him dearly! I'm hurting terribly b/c there's nothing I can do to get him healthy and clean. Where do I go from here? I hate to nag or sound like a broken record... but I feel like he doesnt care for anyone or thing except his desire to satisfy his crave. He is currently unemployed and appears not to want to be employed.

What do I do?